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Understand Your Mind And Let Your Soul Evolve

WHEN YOU ARE ALL YOU HAVE.

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           For so long I have lived in a

         misery, hit the bottom of the sea. 

      There wasn’t anyone in the world 

       who knew what was happening 

     to me, and it didn’t feel like anybody 

        would  help me or even cared. 

     All I had was my own self, I felt I 

                 wasn’t good enough. 

          Time was ticking, pain was

         increasing, the further I run, 

        the more I’m getting nowhere,

              I denied to see my fears.  

       Cheating myself with the words 

         ” I am fine”, but behind those

       eyes of mine, I see pain, I feel so

      disconnected from the world. No one

                       notices me. 

  But nowadays I learned to accept the 

    truth, I learned to open up my eyes. 

 I notified am getting stronger in this

  fight, amazing as it is, the PAIN dies. 

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©Elynjay, 2017.


SMILE 

             (A GIFT TO SHARE “☺ “)

How do you respond when you are given a beaming smile?, you mostly smile back and probably feel happier too. 

Genuine smiles, whether from friends, a family member or total strangers are infectious and evoke good feelings. A sincere smile indicates positive emotions such as amusement, happiness and pleasure. 

Smile, indeed is built into our nature. You do yourself a favor when you smile, it increases your confidence and reduce feelings of stress. 

Perhaps, you may feel that life’s anxieties give you little cause for smiling. Remember, though, that feelings are usually preceded by thought. (Philippians 4:8,9).

As hard as it may seem, try dwelling on positive and pleasant things whenever possible. Do not wait for others to smile at you. Take the initiative – add a little happiness to someone else’s day. 

See your smile for what it really is; a divine gift that enriches you and the people around you. 

KEY: the words “Happy” and “joy” and their derivatives occur hundreds of times in the Bible. Try reading a page or two, who knows? You may also find yourself smiling more often. 

  • Matthew 5:3,10
  • Philippines 4:6,7.

©Elynjay, 2017.

FROSTBITE (HEART EXPOSED TO EXTREME COLD) 

His heart is as cold as ice 
I try my best to cave through but everything freezes. 

Let me in! I beg. 

His heart; consumed with fear,

Too drunk within his emotions, coward he is 

His walls are up again 

With emotions scarred into his skin with markings of a pen. 

Voice shaking, confused and lost in his thoughts. 

He tells me goodnight, talk to you later. 

My heart screamed No! 

But my lips moved, only for me to say okay. 

Tears well up my eyes

I got sucked into his darkness. 

I let my heart deceive me, believing in something that is long gone. 

And now all my tender parts have departed:

  • Icy frost
  • Rock cold 


©Elynjay1, 2017.

I AM NOT AFRAID 

They do not mind when you fall behind.

They do not mind when the world crashes down around you. 

They do not mind when you strive to have a better life.

They do not mind when you are locked up in jail. 

Nobody really cares when you live a life full of shame, when you are troubled and hurt. 

I see them coming after my soul because I had no one to lean on. 

They wanted to take control. 

They wanted me to believe in all the material things like my life depended on it. 

They say it is only what the world had to offer. 

This burden I bare is so hard. 

I know I want to get the most out of life, but if trouble must come, let it come because I am protected by the Most High (JESUS). 

I AM NOT AFRAID. 

In order to survive 

I rise on a prayer everyday,

That is all I got to take me through .

“PRAYER”; ……. Helping me free myself from everything that holds me captive. 

I will not give in because I AM NOT AFRAID. 

©Elynjay, 2017.

I RISE

FALLEN

The truth is out

I struggle to contain 

What could I do to change my mind 

It keeps hitting me

The words leaving me unconscious 

Lifeless, I  hit the ground. 

See I am hurting but not broken 

Down but I will not die 

Fell into a hole of weary. 

FALLEN

I am using all my strength to get out of this hole. 

Some say it is a mystery 

How I still believe 

I will rise up from the ashes 

In spite of all I have been through 

Gathering all my strength, I found myself whole again. 

See; ….. I had a power they cannot see with their eyes. 

It’s a little thing called FAITH that makes BROKEN WINGS FLY. 

I RISE

©Elynjay, 2017.

DEPRESSION AND 5 STEPS TO OVERCOMING IT. 

This world can feel dark many days and in troubling times, darkness can hover closely. Yet God is still there and He reminds us that He’s greater than anything we face in this life. His power is the One who can set us free from the pit we sometimes sink down into.

Most times when one is depressed, there is no motivation to do anything, not even the things we usually love to do. 

You often feel worthless and a burden to others. You stay in door and all you can think of is to sleep. You tend to care little about anyone or anything. You often feel like being stuck in a deep, dark hole with no way out. You feel like you are losing your mind, losing who you are and you sometimes have suicidal thoughts. 

There could be physical factors, thus; depression often runs in families, suggesting that genetics can play a role perhaps affecting chemical activity in the brain. Other risk factors include cardiovascular disease and changing hormone levels, as well as ongoing substance abuse, which may intensify depression and anxiety. 

5 STEPS TO OVERCOMING ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION .

If you suffer from depression, take a reasonable measures to care for your physical and mental health. Create a First Aid Kit for your emotions. 

  • A list of comforting and up building sayings from the Bible, such us Psalm 34:18,57:17;94:19. Philippians 4:6,7.
  • Pray for God’s  power to break through the darkness and cover you, lift you up, out of the place you may find yourself in today. 
  • Believe that nothing is impossible with Him, ask Him for His healing and grace to touch the deepest parts of your life.
  • Matthew 19:26, 2 Timothy 1:7, 1 John 4:4.
  • Read more of inspirational sayings and encouraging articles. 
  •  You can as well  listen to your favorite songs that are positive and up building. 
  • Confide in someone you trust, could be a family member, a friend or a mental health professional. 
  • EAT WELL

    EXERCISE MORE

    STAY ACTIVE
    GET SUFFICIENT SLEEP

    • Eat well, Exercise more, Stay active and Get sufficient sleep.  


    PS: Before you think of doing something out of the box, Eg; *suicidal thoughts *, think of the people who love you. 

    Know how much they care about you and always have it in mind that, they need you more than you think. 

    ©Elynjay, 2017.

    POWER IN HIS NAME 

    When you feel like you

    are in the Storm

    No matter what 

    swirls around you… 

    All things will change 

    when you call unto His name.

    God promises to

    be our perfect peace.

    Have a wonderful day…. 

    ©Elynjay, 2017.

    LIVE FREELY 

    The monsters do not live under your bed

    Or around you. 

    They live inside your head 

    Look inside yourself and see how black your heart is. 

    Change your thoughts 

    Kill your monsters and live freely. 

    ©Elynjay, 2016.

    EVERYTHING WRONG WITH THE GIRL IN THE MIRROR 

    Looking through the mirror, I could see Fear, Rejection, Pain, Guilt, Resentment, Sadness and Bitterness. 
    Nothing in the world could ever change my sadness. I am deeply lonely and can never be happy. I have pretended enough and now I am totally shattered. 

    The anchor that holds me in my pain, stays the same. What I once used to crave, now seems to be what I absolutely detest. I was once surrounded by people who adored me and now the slightest sign of love seems to irk me. 

    I began to associate LOVE with PAIN and all I wish to do is run away from it as far as I can. I managed to convince myself that I am protecting myself from feeling any pain. 

    The walls I put up, the constant need of establishing boundaries, I unquenchable thirst to be alone, just by myself. I felt this phase was blissful .

    • What is it that I want? 
    • What is it that can make me happy? 
    • Do I embrace pain and remain unhappy?. 

    I think am fading, I am so lost. 

    Stop Over thinking

                            EMBRACE 

    But looking through me as I stood in front of the mirror with my eyes closed, my inner self felt the need to embrace every moment with a smile…….. So I said; 
    Mirrors are not to be trusted, they lie and steal your true self, they reveal only what your mind believes it see. There is every need to change. 

    Embrace every moment with a smile ☺

    ©Elynjay, 2017.

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