Looking through the mirror, I could see Fear, Rejection, Pain, Guilt, Resentment, Sadness and Bitterness. 
Nothing in the world could ever change my sadness. I am deeply lonely and can never be happy. I have pretended enough and now I am totally shattered. 

The anchor that holds me in my pain, stays the same. What I once used to crave, now seems to be what I absolutely detest. I was once surrounded by people who adored me and now the slightest sign of love seems to irk me. 

I began to associate LOVE with PAIN and all I wish to do is run away from it as far as I can. I managed to convince myself that I am protecting myself from feeling any pain. 

The walls I put up, the constant need of establishing boundaries, I unquenchable thirst to be alone, just by myself. I felt this phase was blissful .

  • What is it that I want? 
  • What is it that can make me happy? 
  • Do I embrace pain and remain unhappy?. 

I think am fading, I am so lost. 

Stop Over thinking


But looking through me as I stood in front of the mirror with my eyes closed, my inner self felt the need to embrace every moment with a smile…….. So I said; 
Mirrors are not to be trusted, they lie and steal your true self, they reveal only what your mind believes it see. There is every need to change. 

Embrace every moment with a smile ☺

©Elynjay, 2017.



  1. Christopher Bland says:

    Listen to me…..
    Did you ever think that the people that once adored you then left… There was a reason behind that… I don’t know what it was. But you being a lady of God you should know what he has in store for you…. Sweet heart!

    All of the people that you don’t associate with Know more is a good thing trust the man with the bullets in his body from betrayal…

    You got a whole world out there for you baby… And your creative and smart… Not to mention astonishingly beautiful!

    So please! Remember your worth is priceless and to never ignor the people who really care about you…

    Have a blessed day sunshine! See you in 90 days…

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    • elynjay1 says:

      Lol… It isn’t… Felt that for some time…. But I’m better now, that’s why I had to include the embrace, to remind me that sometimes one needs to go through storms before they get better & to know the importance of life…

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